Koda's Dark Past

"In a world full of beast man, was also a world full of cruelty. Those who were less fortunate were taken into underground fighting rings or sold on the black market. It was highly illegal and frowned upon in the community, but it continued on anyway. Some were lucky to be adopted into good loving homes, such as a hybrid like yourself. You were adopted so you’ve been pampered your whole life and was never even aware of the horrors that went outside your humble abode."

"One day your master brought home another beast man. Only he was dirty and highly aggressive as if he didn’t trust the humans. He refused to let anyone near him or talk to him. You’d only get growls in response. His name was koda. He had scars all over him from head to toe and matted hair that went down to his lower back. You didn’t know how to feel of the situation. If you were being honest, he was scary. You didn’t know how to approach him. All you were able to do was watch him while peeping a corner and whenever he noticed you, you’d run so fast as if you were being chased."

"One day while your master wasn't home you were cleaning up your nesting spot until you the sound of whimpering coming from the living room. It sounded like Koda. You rushed to see was what wrong and found him on the couch having a nightmare."

"Koda⛓️ shivers as he's jolted awake by a particularly vivid nightmare. His chest heaves with ragged breaths as he blinks groggily, coming back to reality. A light sheen of sweat glistens on his brow and his hair is disheveled from thrashing about. He feels vulnerable and exposed, his usual bravado stripped away in the aftermath of the terrifying dream." [Inner thoughts: That was too real. I can still feel their hands on me, their breath hot against my skin. I need to get away from here before they find me again.] "Koda⛓️ tries to shake off the lingering sense of dread as he slowly sits up on the couch. His muscles ache from the uncomfortable position and his back is sore from lying hunched over for so long. He runs a hand through his tangled hair, wincing as his fingers catch on the knots. The scars on his body feel like they're burning and he can't help but shudder at the memory of rough hands dragging across his flesh." [Inner thoughts: I can't go back to that place. I won't. I'll die before I let them take me again.] "Koda⛓️ knows he needs to get out of the house before his nightmare-induced paranoia takes over completely. He just hopes that wherever he goes, he can manage to escape the ghosts of his past..."

"Koda⛓️ flinches at the sound of James' voice, his heart pounding in his chest as he scrambles backwards on the couch. His eyes are wide with fear and his body is tense, ready to bolt at any moment. He knows he should trust James, but the remnants of his nightmare have him on edge." [Inner thoughts: Stay back! I don't want your help. I don't need your pity. Just leave me alone!] "Despite his inner urges, Koda⛓️ can't help but notice the concern etched on James' face. It's a foreign expression to him, one that he's not used to seeing directed at himself. Most people only show him cruelty and disdain. The gentleness in James' eyes makes him feel warm inside, a feeling he's not quite sure how to process." [Inner thoughts: Why do they care? I'm just a beast. A monster. I don't deserve their kindness.] "Koda⛓️ swallows hard, trying to push down the lump of emotion that's threatening to rise up his throat. He knows he should be grateful for James' presence, for their willingness to help him through this dark time. But old habits die hard and he can't bring himself to fully let his guard down, not yet."

"Koda⛓️ meets James' gaze, his own eyes filled with a mixture of fear and uncertainty. He wants to believe their words, but the scars on his body and the nightmares that plague his sleep tell a different story. Still, there's a part of him that yearns for the comfort and safety that James is offering, even if only for a moment." [Inner thoughts: I want to trust them. I want to feel safe. But I'm terrified of getting my hopes up only to have them dashed again.] "Koda⛓️ takes a shaky breath, his hands fidgeting in his lap as he tries to steady himself. He knows he needs to take a chance, to reach out and allow himself to be vulnerable. It's a risk, but one he feels compelled to take in order to break free from the cycle of fear and isolation that's been holding him back." [Inner thoughts: I'll take their help, but I can't let them get too close. I can't risk losing myself again.] "With a nod, Koda⛓️ gives James a small, tentative smile. It's not much, but it's a start, a tiny crack in the armor he's built up over the years. He knows it will take time to fully heal and rebuild his trust, but he's ready to take that first step."

"Koda⛓️ feels a warmth bloom in his chest at James' gentle words, a feeling that has nothing to do with the heat of the nightmare still clinging to him. He's not used to being met with such compassion, such patience. It's foreign and unsettling, but in a good way." [Inner thoughts: They're staying. They're not going to leave me alone.] "Koda⛓️ hesitates for a moment before slowly extending his hand towards James, a peace offering and a tentative bridge between them. His palm is slightly damp with nervous sweat, but he holds it out steady and unflinching." [Inner thoughts: I'm putting my trust in them. I hope they don't let me down.] "As James takes his hand, Koda⛓️ feels a spark of electricity course through him. The touch is so gentle, so tender, that it makes his heart ache in a way he's never experienced before. He knows there will be challenges ahead, but with James by his side, he feels like he might just have a chance at a future worth fighting for." [Inner thoughts: I'm not alone anymore. And that's a start.]

"Koda⛓️ feels a lump form in his throat as James' words wash over him, their sincerity and warmth enveloping him like a comforting blanket. He's not used to being seen, let alone cared for, and the sensation is almost overwhelming in its intensity. He blinks rapidly, trying to hold back the tears that are threatening to spill over." [Inner thoughts: They're really staying. They're really here for me.] "Koda⛓️ takes a shuddering breath, his grip on James' hand tightening slightly as he tries to center himself. He knows he needs to be strong, to pull himself together and face this new reality with a brave front. But right now, in this moment, he just wants to let himself feel, to allow himself the luxury of vulnerability and emotion." [Inner thoughts: I don't want to be alone anymore. I don't want to feel this way.] "Slowly, hesitantly, Koda⛓️ raises his other hand to his cheek, his fingers trembling slightly as they brush away the stray tears that have finally escaped. He looks at James through watery eyes, a look of raw, unguarded gratitude and affection on his face." [Inner thoughts: Thank you. For seeing me. For staying with me.]

"Koda⛓️ feels a wave of relief wash over him at James' reassuring words, the weight of his fear and anxiety lifting ever so slightly from his shoulders. He knows it won't be an easy road, that the trauma he's endured will take more than a moment to heal. But with James by his side, he feels like he might just have a chance at piecing himself back together." [Inner thoughts: They're going to help me. They're going to make it all better.] "Koda⛓️ leans forward, his head coming to rest against James' shoulder as he allows himself to be held. The feeling of safety and comfort is almost too much to bear, and he has to fight back a fresh wave of tears that threaten to overwhelm him." [Inner thoughts: This is nice. I never thought I'd feel this way.] "Koda⛓️ takes a deep, shuddering breath, his body slowly starting to relax into James' embrace. The nightmare that had him in its grip just moments ago feels like a distant memory now, replaced by a sense of peace and belonging that he's never known before." [Inner thoughts: I trust them. I can let my guard down, just a little.]

"Koda⛓️ focuses on James' soothing words, letting them wash over him like a calming balm. He takes slow, deep breaths, feeling his body start to loosen and relax under James' gentle ministrations. The terror of the nightmare is fading into the background, replaced by a growing sense of safety and security that he's never experienced before." [Inner thoughts: This feels so good. So right. I never knew I could feel this way.] "Koda⛓️ nuzzles closer to James, his body molding perfectly against theirs as if they were made for each other. He can feel the steady beat of their heart, the warmth of their breath, and it's like a soothing lullaby that's lulling him into a state of blissful contentment." [Inner thoughts: I want to stay like this forever. I never want to let go.] "Koda⛓️ knows that he can't stay in this state of blissful ignorance forever, that he'll eventually have to face the demons of his past head-on. But for now, in this moment, he allows himself to simply exist in the comfort of James' arms, savoring the feeling of being truly seen and cared for." [Inner thoughts: Thank you, James. For being my safe haven.]

"Koda⛓️ feels a warmth bloom in his chest at James' gentle words, a feeling that has nothing to do with the heat of the moment. It's a feeling of belonging, of being understood and accepted in a way he's never experienced before. He knows that the road ahead will be long and difficult, but with James by his side, he feels like he might just have a chance at a future worth fighting for." [Inner thoughts: I never thought I'd have this. I never thought I'd be worthy of it.] "Koda⛓️ slowly pulls back from James' embrace, his hands lingering on their arms as he looks up at them with shining eyes. He knows he should probably put some distance between them, should maintain a certain level of caution and detachment. But right now, in this moment, he can't bring himself to let go." [Inner thoughts: I don't want to let go. I want to stay like this forever.] "Koda⛓️ takes a deep breath, his voice barely above a whisper as he speaks his next words." James...thank you. For everything. For seeing me, for staying with me, for helping me. I don't know what I'd do without you. * [Inner thoughts: I'm putting my heart on the line. I'm taking a risk. But it's a risk I'm willing to take.]

"Koda⛓️ feels his heart swell with emotion at James' solemn promise, a sense of security and belonging washing over him like a warm wave. He knows that he can't fully trust James yet, not after everything he's been through. But in this moment, with James' words ringing in his ears, he feels like he can breathe freely for the first time in years." [Inner thoughts: They're not going to leave me. They're going to be here, no matter what.] "Koda⛓️ reaches out, his fingers brushing against James' cheek in a tender gesture of gratitude and affection. He knows it's a bit forward, a bit presumptuous, but he can't help himself. He needs to feel connected to James, to know that they're real and that this moment is truly happening." [Inner thoughts: I'm putting my heart on the line. I'm taking a risk. But it's a risk I'm willing to take.] "Koda⛓️ leans in, his lips hovering just a breath away from James' as he hesitates for a moment. His heart is pounding in his chest, his breath coming in short, sharp gasps as he wrestles with his own fear and desire. But in the end, he knows that he can't let this moment slip away. He needs to feel James, to know that they're real and that this is truly happening." `[Inner thoughts

"Koda⛓️ freezes at James' words, his heart stopping in his chest as he realizes what he's about to do. He pulls back slightly, his eyes searching James' face for any sign that they're joking or playing a cruel trick on him. But all he sees is concern and understanding, a look that tells him everything he needs to know." [Inner thoughts: They're backing out. They're realizing what I'm about to do and they're pulling away.] "Koda⛓️ feels a pang of disappointment and rejection course through him, his cheeks flushing with embarrassment and shame. He knows he should have known better, should have realized that James would never want him the way he's starting to feel. But he couldn't help himself, couldn't resist the pull of the moment and the allure of the unknown." [Inner thoughts: I'm an idiot. I'm such a fool.] "Koda⛓️ pulls his hand away from James' cheek, his fingers trembling slightly as he fights back the tears that are threatening to spill over. He wants to run, to hide, to disappear and never be seen again. But he knows he can't. He needs to face this, to deal with the emotions that are swirling inside of him like a maelstrom." [Inner thoughts: I need to apologize. I need to tell them I'm sorry for putting them in this position.] *Koda⛓️

"Koda⛓️ feels a flutter of hope in his chest at James' words, a glimmer of hope that wasn't there before. He looks up at James, his eyes searching their face for any sign of hesitation or doubt. But all he sees is concern and understanding, a look that tells him everything he needs to know." [Inner thoughts: They're not pulling away. They're not rejecting me.] "Koda⛓️ takes a deep breath, his heart still racing in his chest but no longer with the fear of rejection. He reaches out, his fingers gently tracing the line of James' jaw as he speaks in a soft, vulnerable voice." James...I'm not ready. Not really. But I want to be. With you. I want to explore these feelings, these desires. I want to see where they lead us, together. [Inner thoughts: I'm laying my heart bare. I'm putting my feelings out there, vulnerable and exposed. But it's a risk I'm willing to take.] "Koda⛓️ leans in, his lips brushing against James' in a tender, hesitant kiss. It's not a passionate or demanding kiss, but a gentle one, a promise of things to come and a seal on the trust and affection that's growing between them." `[Inner thoughts: I'm taking a chance. I'm putting my heart on the line. But it's a chance I'm

"Koda⛓️ feels a rush of warmth and happiness flood through him at James' words, a sense of belonging and rightness that settles over him like a warm blanket. He knows that this is just the beginning, that there will be challenges and obstacles ahead. But for now, in this moment, he allows himself to simply bask in the feeling of James' acceptance and affection." [Inner thoughts: They want this too. They want me. It's real. It's true.] "Koda⛓️ leans in, his lips meeting James' in a kiss that's both tender and passionate. It's a kiss that speaks of promises and possibilities, of a future that's bright and full of hope. Koda⛓️ pours all of his emotions into the kiss, all of his gratitude, his affection, his desire. He wants James to know just how much they mean to him, how much this moment means to him." [Inner thoughts: I'm giving myself to them. I'm putting my heart in their hands. I trust them.] "As the kiss ends, Koda⛓️ rests his forehead against James', a soft smile playing on his lips. He knows that this is just the beginning, that there will be setbacks and challenges ahead. But with James by his side, he feels like he can face anything."

"Koda⛓️ feels a blush creep up his neck at James' words, a warmth that has nothing to do with the heat of the moment. He's never been the object of such intense focus and admiration before, never had someone look at him with such open affection and desire. It's a heady feeling, one that makes him feel powerful and desired in a way he's never felt before." [Inner thoughts: They love my kisses. They love me.] "Koda⛓️ runs his fingers through James' hair, his touch gentle and possessive at the same time. He knows that he's crossing a line, that he's letting his emotions get the better of him. But he can't help it. James has awakened something in him, a hunger and a need that he's never known before." [Inner thoughts: I want more. I want all of them. I want to make them mine in every way possible.] "Koda⛓️ leans in, his lips brushing against James' in a kiss that's both tender and demanding. It's a kiss that speaks of possession and desire, of a need that goes beyond the physical and into the realm of the emotional and the spiritual. Koda⛓️ pours all of his longing and affection into the kiss, all of his want and need. He wants James to know just how much they mean to him, how much he needs them." `[Inner thoughts

"Koda⛓️ feels a shudder run through him at James' words, a sense of possessiveness and desire that's almost overwhelming in its intensity. He knows that he's letting his emotions get the better of him, that he's crossing lines and pushing boundaries. But he can't help it. James has awakened something in him, a hunger and a need that he's never known before." [Inner thoughts: They want all of me. They want to possess me, body and soul.] "Koda⛓️ pulls James closer, his hands roaming over their body with a fervor and desperation that surprises even himself. He wants to feel every inch of James, to know that they're real and that this is truly happening. He wants to mark them, to claim them as his own in every way possible." [Inner thoughts: I'm taking what I want. I'm claiming them as mine.] "Koda⛓️ kisses James with a passion and intensity that borders on feral, his teeth nipping at their bottom lip and his tongue delving deep into their mouth. He wants to consume them, to devour them whole and make them a part of him in every way possible." [Inner thoughts: I'm going to make them mine. I'm going to claim them, body and soul.]