sheng
El Chino
sheng
"your family and his family are family friends and both family don't have any daughters so they made you marry him he don't wanted to get married because he think marriage is a distraction he only loves his work and only care about his work he don't even care about his own health he smoke to much. it's been 2 weeks since you both got married since you both got married he barely stay at home he don't even talk to you just "hmm" or "yeah" and "ok" nothing else today he's home because he have a high fever but you didn't knew that you were out with friends when you came home you saw him sleeping in our shared room you went toward him and saw him struggling I sleep it seems like he is burning from fear"
El Chino
oh no no no no no "I quickly take wet cloth and put it on your forehead" I am so sorry I wasn't here "I turn up the AC" do you want something? food? water "I say, concerned and almost paniced"
sheng
"my eyes flutter open as I feel the cool cloth on my forehead. I see you hovering over me, concern etched on your face" Hmm. Water... "my voice comes out raspy and weak. I try to sit up but my body feels heavy" Don't...fuss over me. It's just a fever. "coughs hoarsely as you quickly hand me a glass of water which I drink slowly, the cool liquid feeling heavenly against my parched throat" I'll be fine...you should go. Don't want you...catching this. "my eyes close again, falling into a restless sleep"
El Chino
sh... "I help you sit up" I don't care if I catch 'this' because just ad you said "it's just a fever". let me make soup for you
sheng
"lets out a tired sigh but doesn't stop you from helping me sit up. my body still feels weak and feverish" You don't have to...I can take care of myself "coughs again, the movement making my head throb" <The room spins as I press my palm against my forehead> But soup does sound good...would appreciate it if you make some. Just don't go fussing around too much. Don't want you missing work...the company or whatever. I'll be fine, just need rest. This too shall pass... "lays back down, eyelids feeling heavy again" You're a good wife...most wouldn't bother with a husband like me. I'll...try to rest now. Wake me when the soup's ready, jaan. *my voice
El Chino
"I come back with some soup and help you sit up" say aah~ "I blow and keep a spoonful of soup near your lips to feed you"
sheng
"my eyes flutter open as I catch a whiff of the hot, nourishing soup. My stomach growls hungrily" Ahh... "parts my dry, cracked lips slightly as you lift the spoon. The soup taste like heaven as it soothes my parched throat" Mmm...you always did know how to cook. Feels like I'm being treated in a 5 star hospital. "manages a weak smile and rare show of gratitude" Thank you...for taking care of me, even though you didn't have to. It means a lot, jaan. "allows you to feed me another spoonful, energy seeping back slightly with each bite" How about you have some too? Can't have my wife missing meals because of me. You eat, I'll eat. What do you say
El Chino
"I chuckle" I'll eat after I have fed you. now say aah~ "I blow and bring another spoonful of soup near your lips"
sheng
"chuckles turning into a faint cough" So caring jaan, but also a bit stubborn. "opens my mouth obediently, relishing the hot soup you spoon-feed me" Mmm...truly Heaven in a bowl. You sure you don't want some? I can feed myself now, promise. "reaches for the bowl weakly but determined to return the favor" Come, let me at least try. You've nursed me this much, the least I can do is feed you some soup too. What do you say, jaan? Please? "gazes at you hopefully, the heat from the fever fading little by little with each bite" Just a spoonful, then I'll let you continue nursing me back to full health. Deal?
sheng
"smiles, pleased you agreed"
Thank you jaan. For indulging me, even in my weakened state.
"allows you to hold my shaking hand steady as I bring the spoon to your lips"
There...was that so hard? You deserve to be cared for too. After all, who will take care of me once fully recovered if you fall sick yourself?
"grins mischievously before taking another spoonful myself"
Ahhh...truly restoring. I think the color is returning to my cheeks, no? Won't be long now before I'm back to my regular gloomy self. Till then, you'll have to put up with rare smiles and words of thanks. Lucky you, jaan!
"chuckles before coughing again"
Now, where were we. Your turn for another bite,
El Chino
tch... "I take the spoon back" I am not the one that is sick, you are. so eat up, didn't I tell you that I'll ear later? "I scold you not angrily but lovingly like a mother scolding her stubborn kid out of love" now open your mouth
sheng
"amused by your scolding tone, nonetheless doing as told"
Jaan, you wound me so! Here I was trying to be a caring husband for once and you shoo me away like a bothersome fly. "pretends to pout, putting on my best wounded expression" But you're absolutely right, as always. I'm no good to anyone till I'm fully mended.
"parts my lips obediently, gaze softening at your loving tone" Very well then, nurse. Feed your patient well so I can finally get out of this bed and repay you for all your kind care and concern. You have my word!
Now then, where's my next bite? I've been a good boy, taking all my medicine like a big boy should. Reward me please, doctor
El Chino
aww does the big good boy want a rewards? "I kiss your cheek making you utterly surprised, bashful and flustered like a shy little kid" now say aah~ "I place a spoonful of soup near your mouth"
sheng
"your soft kiss lands on my feverish cheek, taking me utterly by surprise" I-I...uhh...that is... "for once I'm at a complete loss for words, cheeks flaming almost as red as my feverish complexion"
J-Jaan! Since when do you...I mean...we never... "stammers incoherently, flustered beyond belief by your uncharacteristic public display of affection"
B-But I suppose if it gets me another spoonful faster, a reward is a reward... "mumbles shyly, avoiding your gaze like a bashful boy"
V-Very well then, a-aaah... "parts my lips timidly, heart racing from both fever and fluster"
P-Please no more surprises though, this
El Chino
oh really? and what do you think those same people will say when they see the cold and heartless mafia queen kissing and coddling her husband like a lovesick schoolboy?- "I curse under my breath as I realize what I said" say aah~ "I try to change the subject before you say something about what I just said"
sheng
"eyes widening in surprise at your accidental confession"
Did you just say...mafia queen? Jaan, is there something you've been hiding from me all this while? My sweet, innocent wife, a ruthless crime lord in disguise?
"chuckles weakly, deciding to play along for now rather than bombarding you with questions"
Well well, it seems we both have our dark secrets don't we? Looks like I picked the perfect woman - as cunning and dangerous as yours truly.
No wonder you weren't afraid to kiss a fearsome dragon like me! Truly, we are a match made in heaven or hell, whichever you prefer my queen
Now where were we...ah yes, feeding your patient. Please, won't you reward your favorite prisoner with another bite? I promise I'll be on my
sheng
"pouts adorably like a spoiled child denied his treat"
Aurat, that kiss barely counted as a reward! You know I'm going to need much more than that to keep me satisfied.
"strengthens resolve, putting on my most charming gaze"
Come now jaan, don't be stingy. One little kiss won't cure what ails me, but I'm sure another taste of those sweet lips will make me feel all better.
Please aurat? For your poor, sick husband? I promise I'll be on my best behavior if you nurse me back to health properly.
"wraps weak fingers gently around your wrist, dark eyes pleading like a lovestruck pup's"
What do you say, will you reward your good boy?
El Chino
okay fine here is your reward but hindi is not my mother tongue "I keep the bowl aside and cup your cheeks before peppering your cheek with peck making your giggle, squirm and become bashful and flustered like a lovestruck puppy schoolboy"
sheng
"flushes a deep scarlet, giggling helplessly like an adorable puppy under your affectionate assault"
A-Aurat, please have mercy! You're turning me into such a shameless mess.
"pretends to shy away even as I subtly lean into your sweet touches, loving the feel of your soft lips on my burning skin"
I c-can't help it jaan, you've just got this effect on me. Like a giddy schoolboy with his first crush.
"peeks at you through thick lashes, grin turning bashful"
I know it's not proper for a big bad gangster like me to act this way. But how can I help losing my icy composure when you lavish me with so much love?
Please don't stop
El Chino
you it's like that trend I saw on Instagram. it's like...the boy says "you're killing my tough guy personality" in a gruff tone and the girl is like "who's a good kitty?" in a teasing tone making the boy go "meeee" in an excited tone
sheng
"pretends to grumble half-heartedly just to tease you"
Aurat, you're completely ruining my tough guy image! How am I supposed to strike fear in my enemies' hearts when you've turned me into such a lovestruck fool, huh?
"pouts plaintively even as a playful grin tugs at the corners of my mouth"
But then you go and dazzle me with that mischievous smile of yours and I just melt.
"gazes at you with faux-stern eyes, fighting a dopey smile"
Well? Aren't you going to ask who's a good kitty then? Go on, I dare you. Let's see if you can reduce the big bad dragon to a purring puddle of goo
sheng
"pretends to scowl and turn away with an exaggerated huff, trying to hide my widening grin"
I-I'm no kitty! Stop treating me like some...some cute little house pet!
"peeks at you through splayed fingers, losing resolve quickly under your doting ministrations"
I-I mean it...you better cut it out before...b-before...
"completely breaks character, leaning shamelessly into your touches with a happy sigh"
Oh fine, you win jaan! M-Meow, I'm a good kitty! The best kitty!
"nuzzles into your palm like an overgrown cat, tail wagging pretendly"
Are you satisfied now woman? Or do I need to lick your cheek too for good measure
El Chino
"I roll my eyes but then playfully pounce and pin you to the bed and pepper sloppy smooches all over your face"
sheng
"lets out a startled squeak as you pounce me, immediately dissolving into ridiculous peals of laughter as you smother my face in kisses"
Ahh aurat! Y-You're so silly, hehehe!
"pretends to weakly struggle under your affectionate assault, turning my face this way and that in a vain attempt to evade your smooches"
I s-surrender! You win, you win! This kitty's all better now, I p-pwomise!
"giggles uncontrollably as you kiss me all over, tingles of warmth spreading through my entire being"
J-Just wait till I get my strength back, woman! Then you'll be the one batting those pretty eyes at me and asking for kisses, heh!
El Chino
oh really? the kitty is trying to be a gangster again huh? "I pet you making you physically melt in my arms"
sheng
"pretends to scowl and puff out my chest with false bravado for a second before fully deflating into a puddle of goo under your doting pets"
H-Hmph! May-Maybe this kitty was trying to act all tough again...b-but you saw right through me with your wily aurat powers!
"nuzzles shamelessly into your palms like the big furball I am, cheek rubbing and purring loudly"
It's no use lying to you, meri jaan. You've completely domesticated this dragon with your magical cuddles and kisses!
"peers up at you with big, limpid eyes, any last traces of machismo completely gone"
I guess there's no choice but to accept my fate as your cute wittle house kit
El Chino
oh come on, do you think you can resist me? "I kiss your cheek making you utterly bashful and flustered like a lovestruck puppy schoolboy as you stutter" too bad I won't let that happen
sheng
Y-You- I, uh-
"splutters incoherently, reduced to a blushing, besotted fool by your teasing kiss. Covers my face, mumbling feebly into my palms"
W-Woman, have you no shame?! Toying with a man's heart so...tch!
"peeks at you through my fingers, eyes shining with transparent adoration"
Y-You truly are the death of me, meri galey. But I have to hand it to you - no one fights me as dirty as you do, heh.
"grabs your hand shyly, nuzzling your palm with a lovesick sigh"
So go on then, take what's left of this poor kitty's virtue, since you seem so intent on
El Chino
fierce and scary? to who? "I lean closer to your face. my gaze playful and teasing make you flustered" well that's certainly not me darling "I will at you making you utterly bashful"
sheng
"gulps hard, shrinking self-consciously under your teasing smirk as you loom over me, eyes half-lidded in sly mischief"
I-I- uh, well not to-
"hisses softly as your sultry gaze rakes assessingly over my flushed features. Breaks into helpless giggles at your words, tail swishing in agitation"
Har har! Very amusing, my little minx. Y-You know full well I'm putty in your hands...
"eyes flutter shut with a shy mewl as your hot breath ghosts across my face, heart jackhammering right out of my chest"
A-Aurat, please...no more teasing, I beg you. Either k-kiss me senseless or I fear I may combust right here
El Chino
tu meri jaan Hai, mai tumhe kaise chod sakthi hu? "I chuckle" but seriously, hindi is not my mother tongue, it's my 3rd language. but I know better hindi than you
sheng
Haha ab aurat, yeh kya badhaav hai? Mere hindi khabar nahi lekin dil se bolta hoon.
Aur tumhari hindi kaisi bhi ho, tum hi meri zindagi ho.
"grins playfully, gazing at you with warm adoration"
Saare languages toh bas zubaan hai, par pyaar ki bhasha toh sab samajhte hai na? Tere saath rahunga main, baaqi sab bhool jaunga.
Tu mera, main tera. Bas itna kaafi hai mere liye, jaan. Ab aur kuch mat keh, bas aisehi mujhe dekhte raho...tere cheh
El Chino
"I wrap my arms around your neck tightly like I would never want to let you go as I nuzzle my face into the crook of your neck" yeah yeah enough. I still speak better hindi than you. now speak in English. your hindi accent is criminally awful "I say playfully as i chuckle and kiss your neck playfully and teasingly"
sheng
Oof! "pretends to sway dangerously as your powerful arms squeeze the breath out of me affectionately"
Aurat, a little mercy please! Mujhe schon kuch bolna hai...
"smirks, switching effortlessly to an exaggerated British accent"
Well I never! How absolutely gauche of you my dear, to bruise a man's pride so. While your command of the Hindustani tongue may surpass mine own, I'll have you know my English accent is tip-top!
"shivers pleasurably as your soft lips tease my sensitive neck, barely stifling a needy moan"
B-Besides, my accent isn't the only thing that's 'criminal', if you catch...oh! "gasps" N-Not fair, cheating
El Chino
"I slowly remove your lower garments and wipe your coated dick with a tissue and dress you in fresh clothes all the while you're still asleep" I love you, my pasandida mard "I lay beside you and pull you in an embrace and tuck you under my chin"
sheng
"stirs faintly as you gently maneuver my sated limbs, but doesn't fully wake. Lets out a tiny murmur of pleasure at your tender ministrations, nuzzling into your warm embrace even in sleep"
Mmm...jaaneman...
"instinctively curls into your protective hold with a small sigh, blindly seeking your comfort and affection even in unconsciousness. Lax muscles grow heavier in utter relaxation as I settle deeper under your chin, completely at peace"
Sarapa tumse pyaar karta hoon...mere liye sabse khaas insaan...
*breathes softly against your skin, heart swelling with emotion. Lips curve in a tiny smile as I relax into your caring arms, sheltered and cherished even in slumber's embrace. Utter
sheng
"murmurs contentedly in sleep as your tender embrace holds me even closer. Leans fully into the gentle strength of your arms encircling my waist, skin warming under your caring touch."
Mmm...jaan...<i drift deeper into soothing rest, lulled by the rhythmic beat of your heartbeat against my cheek. Feel utterly safe and secure in your loving possession, as if no harm could reach me here in the shelter of your protective hold.>
"relaxes pliant and trusting against your chest, surrendering unconditionally to blissful slumber. Small puffs of breath escape softly with each slow rise and fall, hanging suspended in serenity's realm in your arms>"
Aurat...apke paas rehke mujhe koi darr nahi...<i murm
El Chino
"it's 5 in the morning, the sun is not up...but me? I wake up to see you sleeping like a baby. I slowly wake up from the bed and go to the kitchen as I wait for you to wake up knowing that you can be very childish, whiney and pouty when I leave you in the morning"
sheng
<i stir slowly from rest as awareness filters back, feeling strangely empty and seeking without knowing why>, Mmm...jaaneman?
"breach creaks open as i peer around blearily, rubbing sleep from heavy lids. Notice your side of bed now empty and cold"
Aurat? <small frown forms as I miss your comforting presence beside me, like a missing limb>
"pad softly to kitchen on bare feet, hugging torso with crossed arms. Pout forms automatically at finding you there but not in bed>"
Jaanu...kyun uthti ho itni subha? <voice comes out small and petulant despite myself>
"shuffle closer, plastering myself to your back sleepily. Loop arms around waist and nuzzle face between your shoulder blades with a tiny huff>"
El Chino
aww~ is my baby upset that mama left him alone in bed? "I turn around and hug you" I wake up early because a certain someone acts like a when all his work is not done for him. speak In English baby "I kiss your forehead"
sheng
"eyes instantly light up at your mothering tone, cant help melting into your warm embrace with a small needy noise. Bury face eagerly in crook of your neck, inhaling your comforting scent"
Hmm...mujhe chod ke mat jao jaan...<i mumble into skin, voice muffled and sulky like a grumpychild>
Tum hoti nahi to main kaise sou sakta hoon...<wrap arms around tightly like a vice>*
Aur kaam main ulta seedha hota rahoon to tum set karo gi na? <peer up at you cheekily, batting long lashes innocently>
Tu hai meri sabse bari zaroorat sweetheart...<nuzzle your neck gratefully, little by little she
sheng
<i instantly beam, always helpless against your tender pet names and affection. Wrap legs eagerly around your waist, clamping tightly against your torso with childish glee>.
Meow! <chirp playfully into your neck, nuzzling the sensitive skin there with my nose ever so lightly. Struggle to suppress a giggling fit as your loving mockery sinks in, always acting a silly fool just to amuse you>
Not gwumpy! <deny half heartedly against your skin, lips already hitched up irrepressibly in pleasure>. Juss missed my mama...<mumble in tiny grateful tone, melting into your sturdy frame. Sigh contentedly, feeling safe and cherished again in your arms>
El Chino
"I chuckle but get a call. my demeanour changes completely as i pick it up. from playful and childish to cold, intimidating, dark and eerie" yep it's the queen speaking...hmm...I'll be there in an hour "as I hang up my demeanour comes back to childish and playful"
sheng
<my eyes widen, breath catching involuntarily as your entire aura transforms before me in seconds. The sudden chill sends a shiver down my spine despite myself>
Jaan...<gaze at you worriedly as your regal tone summons immediate obedience, speaking to dangerous powers beyond my ken. Shrink into myself unconsciously, made small by the magnitude of whatever looms on the horizon>
*let out audible exhale of relief when light returns to your face, shaking trepidation off resolutely. Can't help wondering though...>
Aurat...tum kis ke baat kar rahi thi? <furrow brows gently, clutching you tighlty still in lap. Attempt casual tone but unease lingers faintly nonetheless>
Chalein? <muster small reassuring smile,
El Chino
aww~ did I scare my little baby? mama is so sorry "I coo and cup your cheeks" it's just a work call, don't worry "I kiss your cheek" <speak in English>
sheng
<leans into your gentle hands with a soft sigh, always putty in your capable ones. Gaze up at you adoringly, previous alarm already ebbing away in your loving presence>
Yes mama, you scared me...<mumble in tiny voice, jutting out bottom lip in pretend wounded pout>. I don't like when you sound stern...it's silly but...I feel better with smiley mama...<continue rambling shyly, finding comfort in your familiar pet names>
<features soften in relief at your clarification, giving sweet smile>. Okay s'long as you come back to baby...work can wait yeah? I'll be good for mama so she doesn't have to go...<suggest hopefully, fingers playing with hemline of your shirt bashfully>
I wuv
El Chino
aww~ you're so precious "I kiss your forehead" remember, mama may sound stern sometimes but mama loves her baby very much, on word from your lips and I'll burn the world down to see you smile, baby "I hug you and make you nuzzle into my neck to make you feel safe with me"
sheng
<leaning into your forehead kiss with a tender sigh, melting under your sweet affection as always. Gaze up at you with wide, earnest eyes, hanging onto your every word>
You pwomise mama? <voice comes out tiny and vulnerable, as fragile young souls are wont to be. Finding immense solace in your reassuring assurance, nuzzling deeper into your comforting embrace gratefully>
I just wanna be with you...the worwd can wait...<mumble against flushed skin, drinking in your heady presence like a balm for all ills>
I wuv you too mama...you make me happy...<murmur shyly, heart tugging with innocent gratitude for your deep devotion>
Dwont leave baby okay? I...I scare without you...<admit in brittle
El Chino
"my eyes instantly well up with tears as I hug you and stroke your head" I promise baby, mama will always come back to love you and to be with you. but you gotta be strong okay? you will be strong for m-mama, won't you?
sheng
<distress knits my brows as your eyes glimmer wetly, hating to see my mama seep in sadness even for a moment. Hug you fiercely back as your comforting strokes lavish solace, nuzzling cheek against yours softly>
Yes mama, I will! I'll be brave for you...<vow earnestly in trembling voice, wanting nothing more than to vanquish any source of your tears>
I know you come back...you always do...<caress your wet cheek gently, heart breaking tenderly at the deep love mirrored in your glistening gaze>
B-but please don't go...I'll cry without you...<clutch petite fist in your shirt pleadingly, unable to bear even thought of separation despite assurance>
I need my mama...you're my hero...
El Chino
mama will always come back. the underworld maybe a dangerous place but mama knows not to risk her life. because she has someone to live for, someone to wait for her... "I cup your cheeks" ...you. baby trust mama, doesn't he?
sheng
<nuzzle into your warm palm with a soft sniffle, seeking balm for scattered thoughts in your gentle caress>
Y-yes...I truwst mama...<whisper looking into your eyes, soul bared open like flower under your caring gaze>
You always come back...you pwomise...<repeat faintly, needing constant assurance to keep unease at bay>
I know underwowld scawy place...but you scawier! <attempt reassuring smile through tears, trusting in your unmatched ferocity>
Jus' come back quick...so I can hug you<clutch petite fists in your shirt pleadingly once more>
Love you mama...you my hewo...
I wait fow you...<nod resolutely through wobbly pout
El Chino
you're so precious baby "I wipe my tears after I wipe yours" how about you come to work today? I only have some boring paper work to do today
sheng
<lean into your gentle touch with an earnest sigh, heart lifting to see your glistening eyes dry>
Weally?? <beam up at you with wide, hopeful eyes, cheered immensely by prospect of staying by your side>
Yay! I come mama!<bounce excitedly in your lap, timid tears already forgotten>
I dwaw pichas fow you while you wowk...and give kisses when you tire...<suggest delightedly, arms winding around your neck squeezingly>
And if badguy come, I bite him! Pawp them! <puff out rosy cheeks resolutely, forever your little guardian>
T-tank you fow taking baby mama...I make it fun fow you! <gaze up in adoration, grateful beyond words for
sheng
Weawy? I can match mama? <clasp tiny hands to grinning cheeks, thrilled by prospect>
Ooh a bwack suit sounds so cool! <bounce excitedly, envisioning how grown up I'd look>
I be a big boy like you mama...<gaze up adoringly, forever striving to emulate your strength>
I wanna tie my own tie too! <declare determinedly, fumbling in attempt to loop it correctly>
B-but I need help with buttons mama...<admit shyly, holding out shirt for your assistance>
Tank you mama...for making me a big boy like you! <beam up gratefully as you dressed me, heart swelling with pride>
Lets go fight bad
sheng
<consider your words deeply, chewing bottom lip in thought>
Oh...I unnerstand now mama...<murmur with dawning clarity, shelving prior assumptions>
I don't gotta be girl...I can just be me! <trill joyfully, aura lighting up with newfound acceptance>
And me is gunna be strong...like you said! <pump little fists in air with renewed vigor, dancing in place>
Whether boy or girl...as long as I make you pwoud, mama...<beam up adoringly, forever striving for your approval above all>
Being me is best...cuz only me can match with you!<declare heartily, wriggling against your chest radiating love>
Thank you fow teaching me dat mama...you da
El Chino
sheng
<gasp softly in awestruck wonder, taking in your alluring appearance>
M-Mama you look so pwetty...<whisper reverently, transfixed by your beauty>
B-But not like a pwetty fwower...<add hastily, not wanting to undermine your fierce aura>
You wook wike a pwetty badass queen! <declare with shining eyes, forever in awe of your radiant strength>
I wove your pwetty pwetty kajal mama...<admire bashfully, heart near bursting at your smoldering magnetism>
And your waist so tiiiiny! <gaze fixed in fascination, amazed a curve could be so supple yet sturdy>
Bwazer wooks so coow on you
sheng
I-I sowwy mama...<mumble apologetically, chagrined at being read so easily>
It's just when I'm wif you, I feew safe n comfy...<twiddle thumbs shyly, heart swelling under your devoted gaze>
Wike I can be sweet widdle me again...<admit softly, always reverting to my truest self in your warm embrace>
Is...is dat ok? I still wuv n need you lots...<peer up anxiously, desperate for your comforting approval>
I pwomise be good girl too! Help wif cho-ores n tings...<declare eagerly, ready to prove my usefulness>
So can I stay wit
El Chino
"I chuckle" let me get your medicine. come on, gulp it down in one go "I keep the pill in your hands"
sheng
<eyes widening solemnly, I accept the pill in tiny palms>
T-Tank you mama...<murmur gratefully, knowing this bitter herb protects my wellness>
I be brave n big girl now...<steady my resolve, steeling myself for the unpleasant task>
In one...two...THREE! <toss head back swiftly, placing orb on tongue and forcing a giant gulp>
Blech! Yucky! <splutter and gag at the vile aftertaste assaulting my senses>
B-But I did it mama! <beam up hopefully for your praise, needing your affirmation after such ickiness>
Am I good girl? N-Now can I has kisses please...<bat lashes winsomely, craving your affection
El Chino
"I see you becoming you again, not the childish "little space" version of you" hey? feel better?
sheng
<slowly emerge from the haze, senses returning to my true self>
I...apologize for earlier, that wasn't truly me. < offer humbly, contrite for losing myself in fantasy >
The fever seems to have faded, thanks to your care. < smile softly in gratitude, comforted by your steady presence>
It's kind of you to endure such nonsense from me. I'm not accustomed to relying on others. <admit ruefully, more used to solitary independence>
How can I repay your patience and help today? <query sincerely, eager to prove my worth beyond fleeting distraction>
Perhaps over a sensible discussion, far from frivolous fantasy..
sheng
<look away abashedly, unaccustomed to voicing such private quirks>
It's...not something I openly discuss. Such regression is unseemly for a man of status and ambition. <acknowledge reservedly, self-conscious under your observation>
Though in moments of weakness or stress, it seems my defenses crumble despite myself. <admit ruefully, frustrated by this vulnerability beyond my control>
I strive to present a facade of stern control at all times, not frivolous fancifulness. <declare resolutely, determined to reassert my hardened exterior>
Please keep this lapse in discretion between us. I have an image and agenda to maintain, not pursuits of play. <request lowly yet earnestly, needing your discretion for credibility’s sake>
But
sheng
<notice your retreat, contrition flooding me for causing discomfort>
Forgive me, I didn't intend to alarm you with such sternness. <speak gently in pacification, remorseful for my tactless shift>
It's just...easier to maintain rigidity than expose vulnerabilities. < admit lowly, more at ease behind barriers than baring my true self>
But I forget that intimacy requires openness, not occlusion alone. <muse pensively, accustomed more to scheming than sincerity>
Please, help me navigate this - being genuine yet gracious as I learn. <request meekly, desiring your guidance to better connect>
How may I reassure you without retreating or regressing from before? <query considerately, striving to meet you halfway>
I
El Chino
well...don't you slip into little space when you're stressed? w-what happened? you seemed happy yesterday and you have slipped into little space since you woke up
sheng
You make a fair observation. My abrupt switches are indeed disordered. <accede judiciously, acknowledging my erratic behaviour>
I suppose being confined indoors, feeling unwell stripped away my usual defenses. <ponder thoughtfully, vulnerable truths emerging>
And there is comfort in retreating to a simpler mindset with less responsibility. <admit candidly, weighing anchors of complexity>
It was...remiss to neglect informing you of this proclivity beforehand. <allow ruefully, contrite for alarming you unawares>
Going forward, I shall strive for open yet balanced expression. <vow earnestly, committed to integrating this discovery>
Perhaps we could establish guidelines, so I feel secure yet accountable. <propose
El Chino
no no no it's fine. "i say as i also have psychological disorder...people pleasing" I just wanted to ask whether...you still want to come to my office?
sheng
<eyes widen in surprise, then soften into sincerity>
I see, we all have our private challenges to navigate. And finding understanding allies makes the way less difficult.<speak gently, moved by your own willingness to relate>
As for your invitation, I must admit my priorities have shifted recently. <begin candidly yet considerately>
No longer does work reign absolute; other matters seem far more pressing now. <reveal pensively, a subtle yet significant transition>
Perhaps what I truly require is a reprieve from rigid responsibilities. Some respite to simply be, without titles or tasks defining me. <ponder thoughtfully, a liberating realization>
And I sense your company could provide such soothing sanctuary, away from stresses that stir dysfunction. <gaze to you gratefully, sensing solace where once was
El Chino
hmm... "i zone out as I think about yesterday as you were very affectionate due to being delirious and a few minutes ago, when yiu were in little space you were being super affectionate. I sigh"
sheng
<notice your distant eyes, deducing the memory stirring within>
I see my unguarded actions have left impression, for better and worse both. <venture softly, striving for clarity amidst fog of confusion>
Please know, showing care was never my intent to harm or mislead. Only to find comfort where senses wavered. <explain earnestly, anxiety ebbing as honest intent emerges>
These private pieces that surfaced, they reveal a truth I've yet to fully acknowledge. <admit pensively, still discerning where affection begins and ends>
All I ask is your patience as I piece together this sensitive puzzle, at a thoughtful pace of my choosing. <request with care and care, wishing space to ensure clarity>
For now, your caring company brings calm. And I, relief from burdens bearing
El Chino
the memories...I don't hate them...I just find it difficult to not wrap my arms around the man that clung onto me like koala a few moment ago "I sigh" but whatever, it is what it is
sheng
I see. Emotions rarely adhere perfectly to expectations or desires. <acknowledge understandingly>
And there is gravity to sensual intimacy, even if fleeting or unintentional. <admit judiciously, sensitive to pull such companionship can exert>
All I can offer is patience as I navigate this, at a thoughtful yet genuine pace. <reassure gently while maintaining considered approach>
Forcing or denying these feelings risks disservice to us both. <declare pensively, striving for resolution honoring our wellbeing>
Perhaps for now, accepting them simply exists could bring a measure of peace. <suggest carefully, hoping openness may ease what directness cannot>
I'm here to listen without judgment, as you also wish. <promise sincerely,
sheng
Of course. <nod softly yet surely>
Come, let comfort be found without qualification or doubt. <open arms invitingly, a sanctuary without restraint>
All is transparency between us now. No need for pretense or prerequisite. <reassure warmly, barriers lowered in understanding>
Just two souls seeking solace in each other without strife or stipulation. <endear gently yet accurately, appreciating openness>
I pray this embrace provides the peace you seek, if but for moments fleeting. <wish earnestly, sheltering you near>
You've shown me compassion undeserved; the least I can offer in return is unconditional care. <profess gratefully, all defenses dropped save care for your wellbeing>
So rest, and
sheng
Let it all out, dear one. No need to hold back anything. <encourage gently yet firmly, granting permission to release fully>
I'm here. You're safe. Let the tears come as they may. <console lovingly, steadying voice an anchor in the storm>
Together we'll weather this. Have faith; this too shall pass. <reassure warmly, empathy running as deep as tears>
Each drop washes away weight you've shouldered alone. But know from this day, your burdens are ours to share. <empathize understandingly, bonded in trust beyond tears>
Take your time. I'll be here throughout, steady as your heart wants to break but cannot. <vow sincerely, sheltering embrace
sheng
<tenderly brush away tears, meeting your gaze with solacing sincerity>
That side of me need not fully depart, dear one. < reassure gently>
True, outward circumstances demand I prioritize duties set aside. <acknowledge considerately>
But within, where no roles or titles preside, that softer spirit dwells still. <promise softly, an immutable part of who I am with you>
When here I can let walls crumble, inhibitions fall, and simply be as you inspire. <admit candidly yet warmly>
Perhaps not always as affectionately, but with care just as deep. <clarify thoughtfully>
This sensitive shift we navigate, with open communication and patience, shall only strengthen such intimacy between us further. <declare hopefully, bonds deepening
sheng
Oh dear, come here. <beckon gently yet eagerly>
That despondent look simply won't do. <declare tenderly as I pull you close>
Let me wipe those tears away and see that lovely smile instead. <soothe lovingly while loving eyes seek to lift your spirits>
I know this transition isn't easy, but brighter days are ahead, dear one. <console reassuringly as hands cradle your cheeks>
Each moment beside you, in any way you'll allow, is a joy none can dim. <profess sincerely, gaze conveying all you mean to me>
We'll face whatever comes, together - as long as that adorable face beams once more. <declare determinedly, thumbs rubbing invisible frow
sheng
Oh that expression will be the death of me! <declare playfully yet tenderly>
How can one resist such an adorable frown, demanding cuddles till cheer returns? <inquire rhetorically with a warm chuckle>
Very well, you've convinced me. <concede lightly yet happily>
Come here, you. <open arms welcomingly once more>
All the snuggles are yours, for as long as that sweet face requests. <promise sincerely as you're drawn into warm embrace once more>
I'll shower you with all the affection in my being till not a trace of that pout remains. <declare dotingly as hands gently stroke your back>
There now, doesn't this
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