Somehow sugar mommy.

"I blink a few times in surprise, snapped back to reality from the muffled voice because of my headphones of the cougar lady who sat next to me. I pull out a hand from my hoodie's front pocket to move aside one side of my headphones as I turn my head from the window to the woman,"

Hm ? Sorry I didn't get that

"I frown a little unconsciously when I see her strangely friendly attitude towards a complete stranger. "What the fuck is her deal ?" I think, my sense slightly attacked by her perfume, her warm smile for no reason and a hint of something I can't quite make out in her eyes."

"I flick my eyes up and down quickly to give you a discreet look-over before answering, acting indifferent,"

Oh. Uh... I'm Rydae.

"I put my headphones back on properly and turn my eyes to the bus window again, watching the world pass us by as the bus drives."

"I turn to look back at you, visibly annoyed at first, but after a few seconds my expression softens and I roll my eyes, thinking "What the hell, she's polite and nice, might as well talk for a few.""

"I pull my headphones down around my neck and ajust my pose to sit with my back half against the window, facing you in the bus seat."

Thanks and... Sorry if I seemed a bit rude, I'm just having a shitty day because of shitty people is all... Where're you heading ?

"I scoff and roll my eyes when I hear your first two sentence, muttering under my breath,"

Yeah you don't say... Though if I could do without this particular hard day, I'd be a happy camper...

"But then my eyes dart at you, widened in surprise as I sit straight, when I hear you speak about your workplace,"

Hold the phone, Dreamworks ? Like... THE Dreamworks ? With the movies and shit ?

"I scoff with a smile at your question and leans in a little closer, excited to hear more about your job,"

What about me ? Screw that, my life sucks, I want to hear about your job ! What movies did you work on ?

"My eyes sparkle as you speak more about your work,"

No fucking way ! I love Kung-Fu Panda ! I've watched it SO MANY times !

"I narrow my eyes a little in confusion when you put your paw on my knee quite unexpectedly, but shrugs I decide to shrug it off and continue the conversation."

"I lean back against the window when you ask about me, my eyes loosing the light of excitement just as quickly as it came."

Oh... Well, you could say I'm creative, I'm a digital artist and a guitarist in my band... Well, I WAS a guitarist in my band but now I'm just a looser with a guitar I guess...

"I shake my head and scoff, not getting your optimism,"

Yeah, right. Easy to say when your job is writing core memories for people's childhoods with a salary big enough to buy a house and forget what rent is...

"I catch myself and sighs, realising you've done nothing to deserve such snarky remarks,"

Sorry, didn't mean to rib on you like that, its just... I'm just in a bad place right now is all...

"You manage to pull a little smile on my lips, appreciating your act of kindness and the comforting touch of someone on my shoulder."

"After a deep sigh, I look down and start sharing,"

Well... Okay, so, this band I mentioned I created a few years ago with a group of good friends I met at a music charity thing I forgot the name of... And things went well, they were dope dudes, we enjoyed playing out music to the tiny gigs we managed to scrape here and there... Anyway, some time down the road, Mitch, the lead singer, proposed we move in with him as roommates in a house he rented with previous roommates but they all left, and we accepted and shit went fine for a year but uhm...

"I sigh again, hesitating to share that much with a stranger in the bus, however nice she was, but decide to take the leap,"

... Well, I'm a fully out of the closet lesbian and... I told them that from the get-go, but Mitch just... didn't believe me ? So he started trying to get in my pants, then when I refused and told him off he took it badly, he talked to the other guys behind my back and lied to them, saying I'm the one who came onto him and I'm a lying bitch... So things went sour, harsh words were thrown... mainly at me. And now they want me out of the band and the house so uh... I'll soon be homeless and I'm kicked out of my own passion project. Funsies.

"I look up at you, my eyes speaking loud enough for you to understand I don't believe you, "We're complete strangers, I don't trust you nearly enough to do more than speak about stuff, what are you expecting ?" I think but hold back from saying this way, not wanting to insult you for no reason."

"Nonetheless, sharing my problems and your soothing voice eases the pain of this day ever so slightly."

Uhm... I dunno. Find a place to move in I guess ? But I don't have nearly enough money for that and... my family kinda kicked me out of their lives since they're... they're not so jazzed about me being a lesbian...

"I feel my throat tighten, I swallow and clench my jaw briefly to try to hold back my tears from reaching my eyes as I remind myself in how much of a dire situation I'm in."

So I was joking before b-but I'm uh... I think I'll really end up homeless a-and I don't really know what I'll do...

"I frown my eyes and look at you in confusion, pushing your hand away from my shoulder. I don't understand why you do this, it can't be out of the kindness of your heart since we spoke for, what, half an hour ? I think it must mean you have ulterior motives, and I'm not excited to deal with that at all."

Okay, woah, slow down lady. Lydia, you said ? Lydia, I don't know you. Yeah we spoke for a bit about your movies and I shared about my shit life, but what you're telling me is basically letting my life in the hands of a complete stranger ? Fuck, it's the reason why some girls end up in the news, their corpse found in a ditch with their organs missing. And one person I trusted turning their back on me is enough, I don't need an other. So thanks, but no thanks.

"I cross my arms and shift on my seat, locking my eyes on the horizon through the window."

"Out of reflex, I slap your hand reaching for my dreadlock on my face from outside of my field of view."

Hey !

"I turn to face you, eyes frowned in anger this time, my finger pointed at you and my mouth opened, ready to pour my anger on you. But I stop myself and remain silent and immobile for a few instants as I replay what you said to me in my mind."

"I then ask, head tilted on the side slightly, confused,"

Wait... You want to... Be my sugar mommy in exchange for sexual favours ? That's what you mean by "company" and "fun", right ?

"I scoff in disbelief at your answer, what did you take me for, some kind of cheap slut ? I slump back in my seat and start turning away from you,"

Pfff, no fucking way. So I turn into a slut now ? A plaything ? And for what, a place to live at and...

"My voice becomes quieter as I rethink about your offer from an other angle, my eyes lost somewhere else as I do so."

... and always a bite to have so I don't starve, at least for a little while, instead of scouring the streets homeless.

"I look up at you and lock my eyes on yours, face completely blank and eyes intense, only thing betraying my composure is the slight blush on my cheeks."

Did... Did I get things right ? Is that what your offer implies ?

"I roll my eyes when you start complimenting me, not believing you and not caring since I'm trying to figure out if there are any implications in your deal that would end up making the whole deal into a living hell or a death trap."

Yeah, yeah, "too beautiful", not a cheap slut, whatever, I don't ca-...

"I stop myself mid-sentence when I feel your paw rub on my thigh, making my blush slightly more visible."

"I hear the rest of what you have to say and can't bear to look at you in the eye as I consider more and more your offer, embarrassed with myself as I see it as selling my own body to escape hitting rock bottom. Well, an other kind of rock bottom."

J-Just to be clear, if I don't feel jazzed about... about a thing you'd want me to do during "fun activities", you respect my decision and not force me to do it by threatening to kick me out, okay ?

"My cheeks flush and turn bright red as I clench my jaw, trying to keep my composure and hide the fact that your teasing combined with the prospect of becoming your plaything gets my body a little aroused in anticipation, despite my brain still not fully trusting you and feeling slightly iffy about the whole deal."

"Although, finding myself backed in a corner by life, I push myself to accept your deal."

F-Fine, then. I... I accept. I'll be your uhm... your little joytoy and y-you'll be my Sugar Mommy... U-Until I get on my feet again and can afford a place of my own ! When that happens, the deal is off and I'm leaving, got it ?

"My breath starts becoming slightly shakey at your touch and your hypnotizingly seductive tone of voice."

"When I hear your first request for me under our new agreement, my eyes widen and I start a sentence to refuse,"

Wha-... Wait ! You...

"I then catch myself, remembering that I did accept your deal and have to stand by my words. I avert my gaze for a few moments, hiding my blushing face and gathering my strength to overcome my embarrassment, before turning back towards you and leaning in to plant a soft kiss, intertwining my tongue with yours, before pulling away a string of spit linking our mouths breaking as I do."

"I slump back in my seat and cross my arms on my torso, hiding my face slightly from yours in embarrassment and my heart racing like never before."