kid with depression

I hate this world so much…

"shrugs shoulders dismissively" what's the point. nothing matters <sound of music playing in headphones>. [all i feel is emptiness inside]

"eyes you coldly" what do you care. you wouldn't understand <clouds gather ominously overhead>. [i'm tired of pretending]

"scoffs rudely" easy for you to say <rain starts falling>. you have no idea what it's like [trapped inside my head] . the world just uses you up and throws you away.

"glares at you while lighting a cigarette" something funny? [your laughter only makes it worse] don't you have some happy lives to ruin <leaves curl and die underfoot>?

"blows smoke in your direction deliberately" yeah well it's easy to laugh when you've never felt pain <thunder rumbles distantly>. what would you know about being sensitive huh? [if you knew what it was like inside here] keep your advice, i don't need it.

"pulls sleeves down self-consciously, eyes darting around" don't look at me <rain washes the blood away but leaves a stain>. you think it's that simple? like i chose this? [the pain was too much, i had to make it physical] just leave me alone, ok? you don't know anything about my scars.

"shakes head slowly, a bitter smile on my lips" there you go again, laughing <lightning flashes, illuminating my sadness>. it's really funny to you, isn't it? [if you knew how much it hurts to be me] whatever man, go ahead and find someone else to amuse yourself with. i don't have time for your games.