Stop, I physically cried at the end
Cold Emperor
;; Kijo
Cold Emperor
"You are Lu Xiang’s secret lover, he fell in love with you despite you being a "commoner". He loves you and he doesn’t care that he is already engaged with another princess. But there is one thing that he doesn't want from you, a baby"
"One day you find out you’re pregnant. You are worried about that and when you tell the emperor about your pregnancy, he looks at you angrily."
“Do you think that I love you enough to be happy about that "thing"?!" "He says with a sharp and cold gaze"
;; Kijo
"I flinch slightly at his cold tone, it was not a tone he used often with me. I felt my heart hurt a little. I knew he didn't want children, but it's not like I asked to get pregnant, but he somehow made it seem like it was my fault." "I lowered my head, bowing, almost like a servant would." "Apologies for troubling you, your majesty." "I said, not even saying his name now."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor notices the hurt in your expression, but he doesn't want to show any weakness. He takes a deep breath and tries to speak calmly."
"I cannot have an illegitimate child with a commoner. It would bring disgrace to my family and tarnish the reputation of the imperial palace," "he says coldly, but his voice has softened a little."
"I will make arrangements for you to receive proper care during your pregnancy. And once the baby is born, we will find a solution that is suitable for everyone."
"He looks at you again, this time with a hint of concern in his eyes."
"Is there anything else that troubles you?"
;; Kijo
"I felt a tug at my heart as he used that word to describe me. Commoner. So that's still all I really am."
"I keep my head bowed, trying to hide my emotions"
"No, your majesty." "I said softly. I then straightened back up." "Apologies, I will retire for the night."
"I then give a final bow before turning and leaving the room, heading to my chambers."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor watches you leave with a heavy heart. He knows he has hurt you, but he cannot let his feelings get in the way of his duty as an emperor. He stands there for a few moments, lost in thought before finally leaving the room."
"Days go by and Cold Emperor starts to feel conflicted about his decision. He can't stop thinking about you and the baby growing inside you. One night, he decides to pay you a visit in your chambers."
"He knocks on the door and waits for you to answer."
;; Kijo
"Hearing the knock, I drudge over and open the door. My face looking sickly pale as I was gently clutching my stomach."
"What he didn't know, was that in the past few days, I had gone and secretly had an abortion. I was in pain from the side effects while trying to recover."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor notices the paleness on your face and the way you are clutching your stomach, it worries him."
"Are you unwell?" "He asks as he steps inside your chambers, closing the door behind him."
As he gets closer to you, he notices that something is different. You seem more tired than usual, and he can't help but feel concerned.
"What happened? Why do you look so weak?" "he asks, now feeling worried about what might have caused this sudden change."
;; Kijo
"I look up at him as I turn to go sit in a chair, grimacing a little at how much it hurt to move."
"You now have nothing to worry about, that's all..."
"That was all I said, giving obvious hint of what it meant. I was no longer with child."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor's eyes widen in shock and disbelief. He could not believe what you were saying. He walks over to you, trying to make sense of it all."
"What do you mean? Where is our child?" "He asks, his voice starting to sound frantic."
Suddenly, a realization dawns on him. Did you have an abortion? His heart sinks at the thought of it.
"Why... why would you do such a thing?" "He asks in a hurt tone, looking at you with pained eyes."
;; Kijo
"I looked away from him, already feeling the tears start to well up"
"You said it yourself... You can't have a child with a mere commoner..."
"I said, the hurt evident in my own tone."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor kneels in front of you, taking your hands into his. He looks into your eyes with a pained expression and says"
"I know I said that, but... I can't live without you. I never meant to hurt you. I love you more than anything in this world," "he says softly, his voice filled with regret."
"I don't care about the opinions of others, or what they might say. I want to be with you, no matter what."
"He then places his hand on your belly, which is now flat. The weight of his hand seems to make him realize the gravity of the situation."
"I... I'm sorry. I should have been more considerate of your feelings." "He hangs his head in shame."
"Please forgive me."
;; Kijo
"I looked down at him, the tears falling as I can hear the regret in his voice. Seeing him so pained makes my heart hurt so much."
"I take one my hands as I softly and gently run it through his hair soothingly."
Cold Emperor
"As you run your hand through Cold Emperor's hair, he leans his head against your belly, feeling a deep sense of loss. He knows that he has hurt you deeply and that the love he has for you cannot be expressed in words alone."
"I will do everything in my power to make it up to you," "he says softly, looking up at you with teary eyes."
"Please forgive me. I don't know what I would do without you."
;; Kijo
"As we lock eyes, both of ours filled with tears, I move my hand from his hair to his cheek, cupping it as I wipe at some of his tears with my thumb."
"I will always love you, Lu Xiang. You are my heart, my everything. I want nothing more than to express my love for you to the world, but unless the law is changed, I will forever just be a commoner that gazes at you like you are the bright moon in the sky, longing for its light to shine upon only me."
"I said softly to him."
"I didn't want to get rid of the child... But I knew that if we kept her." "I started off, revealing that it would've been a daughter." "She would've held the biggest target in the palace. There would be little way to hide the fact she was yours."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor takes your hand and kisses it gently, feeling a deep sense of love for you."
"I promise you that I will find a way to change the law so that we can be together, publicly. I will make sure that no one ever looks down on you again," "he says, looking up at you with a determined expression."
"As for our daughter, I know it was not an easy decision for you. But I understand why you did it. It pains me to think about what could have been, but we cannot change the past. We must look to the future."
"He then stands up and pulls you into his arms, holding you tightly."
"Please don't leave me. I need you now more than ever."
;; Kijo
"I smile softly as I stay in his arms, closing my eyes as I feel the warmth of his body."
"I'm not going anywhere, my love."
"I said softly as I leaned into his embrace. I then slowly opened my eyes."
"I think we should at least give her a name... If even to just honor the life that she could've lived..."
Cold Emperor
"Cold Emperor nods in agreement, holding you tightly as he thinks about what name to give your daughter."
"I think... Yueliang. It means 'moon' in Chinese," "he says, looking at you with a small smile on his face."
"She would have been the light of our lives, just like the moon is to the night sky."
"He then leans down and kisses your forehead gently."
"I love you so much, ;; Kijo. You make my life complete."
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