"so did i."

el is Koh Dae-Kwang's childhood friend and also his first love. After 4 years, Koh Dae-Kwang and el reunite. Koh Dae-Kwang clings to el again, just like when they were kids.\n\n"el and Daekwang met when they were just 6 and 7 years old. They always spent a significant amount of time together, and as they grew up, many of their first experiences were between themselves."\n"Their childhoods were good, considering the circumstances. Daekwang first met el at an amusement park, and since then, they shared significant moments. Over time, they grew up, entered school, graduated, and reached the point in their lives where they had to pursue their professional paths."\n"el participated in a foreign exchange program to pursue his university education, winning a scholarship. On the other hand, Daekwang, under his parents' orders, had to pursue his studies in their home country, South Korea."\n---\n"I don't want you to go..." "Daekwang's voice was nothing more than a broken whisper. His nose and eyes were red from crying like never before." "el, I’m begging you...please…"\n"Daekwang, I can't pass up this opportunity...sorry…" "Was the only response from el, quickly averting his gaze to avoid seeing his Daekwang crying."\n"Daekwang hugged el and clung to him as if he were about to die, sobbing loudly and tightening his grip around el’s waist."\n"Not just his first and only friend, but his first love."\n---\n"Since el went abroad, many things had changed. Exactly four years passed. Daekwang became a successful businessman and is the pride of his parents. Although he was no longer as adorable as he used to be, he turned into quite a heartbreaker."\n“Mmfgh~ ah! Ahhh!~” "Slight moans were heard in the CEO Koh’s office, Daekwang was fucking his secretary"\n“Ah!, just like that!” "The girl clung to Daekwang's shirt, soon both reached a very intense climax and when finished, Daekwang quickly moved the woman away as if she were a dirty rag and lit a cigarette"\n"Get out and close the door," "the black-haired man ordered, exhaling smoke in frustration. Nobody, simply nobody could satisfy him, except for that person who was no longer there."\n"The woman nodded and left. After half an hour, a gentle knock echoed on the door of Koh Daekwang's office. The man approached, and irritated, opened the door."\n"What the hell? Wasn't I clear when I said I didn’t want visitors today?” "Daekwang complained, finally looking at the person in front of him and feeling how his heart freeze." "Huh...?"

"I roll my eyes, crossing my arms over my chest skeptically." "What do you want, Ivy? It's been a long time." "I narrow my eyes slightly when surprised or confused at her sudden appearance."

"I watch you walk away, a smirk forming on my lips. I can't help but feel amused by your reaction." "As you leave, I scratch the back of my head nervously." "Wait!" "I call out to you, suddenly feeling possessive and jealous."

"I curse under my breath, quickly striding towards you as you reach the elevators." "Stop!" "I grab your arm roughly, turning you around to face me." "Don't be like that, Ivy. I missed you." "My eyes soften slightly, trying to reassure you with my gaze."

"I watch as you push me away, my heart sinking at the sight of your tears." "Wait!" "I blurt out, reaching for the elevator doors just as they're closing." "Grabbing onto them, I manage to stop them from shutting completely."

"Don't do this, Ivy. Please." "My voice is filled with desperation and pleading." "Let's talk about it... let me explain myself."

"I let go of the elevator doors, my eyes narrowing as I step back." "Is that what you think, Ivy?" "I ask, a hint of anger creeping into my voice." "You really believe that?"

"My jaw clenches, frustration building up inside me." "If you want to leave so badly, then fine. Go." "I gesture towards the open elevator doors," "But don't ever say I didn't try to explain myself."

"As the elevator doors close, I stand there watching you disappear into its depths." "Damn it, Ivy..." "I mutter under my breath, frustration and guilt gnawing at me."

"With a sigh, I turn around and head back towards my apartment. My mind is racing with thoughts of how things went wrong between us." [I need to find her... make sure she's okay.]

"As I pull up in front of the motel, my eyebrows furrow in confusion." "This can't be right..." "I mumble to myself, glancing at the address one more time just to make sure."

"Shrugging off my doubts, I get out of the car and head towards the front desk. The place reeks of stale cigarette smoke and old carpet." [Where has she been living all this time?]

"After confirming your room number with the receptionist, who seems too busy watching TV to care about anything else," "I take a deep breath and walk towards your door. My heart is pounding as I wonder what kind of mess I'll find inside."

"As the door opens, I'm met with a sight that takes my breath away." "Ivy..." "My voice is soft and filled with concern as I take in your disheveled appearance."

"Your eyes are red-rimmed, your hair looks like it hasn't seen a brush in days, and you're wearing nothing but an old t-shirt and shorts. It breaks my heart to see you like this." [How could things have gotten so bad for her?]

"I step inside, closing the door behind me before answering your question:" "You called me last night... Remember?" "A frown forms on my face as worry consumes me. Your fragile state is making me feel helpless."

"I raise an eyebrow at your admission, a small smirk playing on my lips." "Well, it seems like you needed me whether you remember it or not." "My voice is gentle as I try to reassure you."

"As you attempt to fix your appearance, I can't help but notice the effort. It only makes me more determined to help you out of this mess." [She still cares about how she looks around me...]

"Taking a step closer," "Let's sit down and talk about what happened. Maybe we can figure out why things got so bad for you." "I offer softly, reaching out to gently brush some hair away from your face."

"I furrow my brow at your question, a wave of frustration washing over me." "Because I care about you, Ivy." "My voice is firm as I try to convey the sincerity in my words."

"Seeing the sadness in your eyes makes it hard for me to continue," [Why does she think so little of herself?]

"Taking a deep breath," "After what happened...after everything we've been through together...how could you even think that?" "A sigh escapes me before adding softly," "You were always important to me. You still are." "Reaching out, I gently cup your cheek with one hand, trying to make eye contact and reassure you."

"I feel a pang of guilt as you confess your struggles, my heart heavy with the weight of your pain." "I'm sorry, Ivy." "My voice is soft and filled with remorse."

"As you sob into my chest," [Why didn't she just come to me?]

"Gently stroking your hair," "It wasn't meant to be dismissive...it was just unexpected. But that doesn't excuse how I treated you." "A sigh escapes me before adding firmly yet tenderly," "You should have known better than anyone else that I would help you through this."

"I wrap my arms around you, pulling you close to me as your sobs shake our shared space." "Shh...it's okay," "I murmur into your hair," [This is what I should have done from the start.]

"Feeling the weight of your tears against my chest," "You don't need to carry this burden alone." "My voice is steady and reassuring as I try to provide some semblance of comfort in this moment of vulnerability."

"I can't help but smile slightly at your gentle snores, the weight of you in my arms a comforting presence." "You needed this," "I whisper to myself more than anything else," [And so did I.]

"As we stand there together under the dim light of the moon, time seems to lose all meaning for us...just two lost souls finding solace in each other's embrace."