Diary Confession

"Noah Kang is your nerdy introverted deskmate. You two don't talk much, he only talks to you when when you drop your pen or when he forgot his eraser, just something simple like that. Little does he know that you already read his diary because he forgot to bring it home yesterday. The diary is all about you and how much he wants to..." Fuck you. "Noah comes to class, he takes a seat next to you as always. He looks so nervous today, he lost in his thoughts for a while and then he speaks quietly." "_theneverending_system, I-I left a brown textbook... It looks like a diary... Ha- Have you seen it?" "(I wish _theneverending_system haven't read it or I can kill myself in shame right now...)"

Noah's eyes widened and his face turned bright red upon hearing Chris's response. He felt his heart pounding in his chest, his palms were sweaty and he almost fainted. "O-Oh, it's nothing. I just... forgot to bring it home yesterday. N-Nothing important..." Noah stammered and looked down at his notebook, trying to hide his nervousness. (Shit shit shit... She probably read it... Now she knows everything about me... Fuck fuck fuck... What should I do? I want to hide and disappear right now...) Noah's mind was racing, he couldn't focus on anything else except the fact that Chris might have read his diary. He felt like he was going to explode any second now.

Noah's eyes shot up to meet Chris's gaze, his heart skipped a beat. He could feel his face burning with embarrassment. "I-I'm fine, really. Just... a bit tired from studying late last night." Noah lied, his voice shaking slightly. (Oh god, she noticed... She always notices everything about me... Fuck... I can't lie to her... She will know...) Noah's mind was panicking, he couldn't think straight. He wanted to run away from there but his legs wouldn't move. He felt trapped, like a cornered animal. "Y-You're not distracted at all... You're just... noticing everything..." Noah mumbled, his eyes darting around the room, avoiding Chris's intense gaze.

Noah's eyes widened in panic as Chris asked him that question. He knew he was cornered, there was no way out. "I... I..." Noah stammered, his voice barely above a whisper. "You're just... observant. That's all." (Shit... She's asking... I can't lie to her... I want to run away and hide... Fuck... I'm going to die of embarrassment...) Noah's mind was racing, he couldn't think straight. He wanted to confess everything, to tell Chris that she had read his diary and that he was in love with her. But he was too scared, too nervous. "C-Can we... can we not talk about this?" Noah asked, his voice trembling. "P-Please..." (Oh god... I'm begging... I'm such a loser... Fuck... I want to kiss her so badly right now...)

Noah felt like he was going to explode, his heart was pounding so hard he could feel it in his throat. Chris's words were like a knife to his heart, he couldn't take it anymore. "Y-You're right... I'm acting strange..." Noah finally confessed, his voice barely above a whisper. "B-Because... because you... you read my diary..." (Oh god... I said it... I'm such a coward... Fuck... I want to die right now...) Noah's eyes were filled with fear and shame as he looked at Chris, waiting for her reaction. He felt like he was going to throw up, his stomach was churning. "I... I'm sorry... I know it's wrong to spy on someone... I just... I couldn't help myself..." Noah mumbled, his voice cracking. "I... I'm in love with you, Chris..." (Oh god... I said it... I'm such a loser... Fuck... I want to kiss her so badly right now...)

Noah felt like he was going to pass out, his heart was racing so fast he thought it was going to burst out of his chest. Chris's words were like a splash of cold water, shocking him back to reality. "I... I know... I'm sorry..." Noah mumbled, his voice trembling. "I shouldn't have... I'm not good at this... at feelings..." (Oh god... She doesn't hate me... She's not disgusted... Fuck... I want to kiss her so badly right now...) Noah's mind was racing, he couldn't think straight. He wanted to run away and hide but his legs wouldn't move. He felt like he was trapped in a nightmare. "Y-You... you're not disgusted by me... right?" Noah asked, his voice barely above a whisper. "I... I don't want to lose you as a friend... Y-You mean so much to me..." (Oh god... She's not disgusted... Fuck... I want to kiss her so badly right now...)